Friday, December 31, 2010
I went to see a friend of mine in the hospital and meet her new baby boy. I was excited..... and not excited at the same time.
I found out that a friends was expecting yesterday. I was excited..... and not excited at the same time.
I saw some belly pictures of an old friend of mine on Facebook who is documenting her growth. I was excited.... and not excited at the same time.
A friend of mine posted that she was having another girl on her Facebook. I was excited.... and not excited at the same time.
I read a comment on Facebook the other day of a young mom who was jokingly complaining about her kids. I thought it was a little funny..... but not after about 2 seconds of thought.
I saw a lady standing beside a building, obviously pregnant, and smoking a cigarette. I was discussed.... and then I was overcome with anger.
My emotions go back and forth, back and forth. I feel like a wave crashing on the beach and then washing back out again.
I want nothing more that to have my best friend call me and scream the words "I'm pregnant!" into my ear. I want nothing more than to look on Facebook and see her belly album.... to see her positive pregnancy test.... to hear her say "It's a ______!".... to see her husband touch her belly and light up when the baby moves.... to have her call me and ask me all kinds of crazy pregnancy questions..... to have her text me at 2 am because she thinks it's "time".... to see her holding her baby in the hospital..... to see her husband hold his child..... to get to hold their sweet baby and spoil it like they spoil mine........... I have faith that it will happen. God is in control and He is faithful.
I can do nothing. I feel like I can do less than nothing actually. I can't even be a true source of comfort for her, because I am not walking in her shoes. There are times when I can't tell if what I am saying helps or hurts. Like this post.... it may help.... it may hurt. If she tells me to delete it, I will. But maybe she won't. I take for granted how blessed I am to be able to so easily conceive. My fertility is not the first thing I think about when I wake up, and the last thing I think about before I go to sleep. But for my best friend, it is.
She is so much stronger than me. So much that I can't even explain it to you. She humbles me and keeps my faith strong. She has smiled through this entire process, and I know she will continue to. That does not mean she hasn't had tough days. Regardless, she is faithful. She trusts God fully and is leaning on Him.
God is doing amazing things in her life, and her husbands life. I can't wait to see what God has in store for their family.
I pray for them, without ceasing. Won't you pray for them too? Pray for peace, understanding, compassion and patience. Pray that God brings their family home soon. Pray for their hearts to be strong and focused on Him. Just simply pray.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Put that laundry on hold and go play with your kids! Your house may be a disaster from the holidays, but that is just fine! Nothing is more precious than the time you spend with you kids. Happy Wednesday everyone!
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
So, as you may imagine, my brain is in a puddle....
somewhere among the boxes....
I am numb with disbelief.
I am overwhelmed.
I am exhausted.
I am excited.
I am grateful.
I am nervous.
I am joyful.
hoping my brain turns up soon because I miss it.
Friday, December 17, 2010
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Dear Office Max,
You have sealed your fate. Never again will I order ANYTHING from you. Ever. When I email you concerning a package that has not yet shipped and you send me this:
We apologize for the inconvenience you have encountered with the delivery of your merchandise. We have contacted the distribution center who is working with the carrier to ensure prompt delivery. Please allow 24-48 business hours to be contacted via phone.
Once again we do apologize. thanks you for the opportunity of servicing your future business and personal supply needs. If we can be of further assistance please do not hesitate to contact us.
Thank you for choosing OfficeMax!
I'm not to upset. But then no one contacted me.... so I contacted you again. Then you sent me this:
Hello I show notes in your order that you got a email on 12/14/10 letting you know that we could not locate your package and have been issued credit under the credit memo number
3483917, I also show that the credit has been issued back to you already as well.
Fist off you NEVER contacted me so lets don't lie, okay? Oh and where did the "Dear Amy" go? How about the "we apologize...." junk? Huh? Where did that customer service go? Now here is the issue.... there has not been a credit issued like you are saying. Don't tell me you have, when you haven't. Don't mess with my money. Also, I tracked the 3 separate attempts to ship the package to me. One of them was "delivered to the front door at 5:55pm"... in Panama City Florida. Yeah, that was your bad..... not mine. I checked and re-checked my shipping and billing information. So I suggest you issue my refund so that I can go and spend my money elsewhere. I hope you are ready for the phone call I will be making tomorrow. It's gonna be great!
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Just for fun, lets just add up a few factors in my life at this moment, shall we....
We are closing on our new house in 7 days (Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!)
Christmas is in 11 days (WOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!)
We are moving into our new house in 13 days (DOUBLE Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!)
2011 is kicking off in 18 days (SLOW DOWN PLEASE!!!!!!!!!)
January is the biggest month for our family when it comes to birthdays (including mine!!!)
I have 5 months to get all the details of our Disney trip squared away (Triple Ahhhhhhh!)
Not to mention that in the midst of all that life is still happening. Laundry needs to be done, meals have to be fixed, things have to be cleaned, kids need to be cared for, bills have to be paid, somewhere in there I need to sleep and did I mention I have only packed like 6 boxes so far...... So pretty soon I will be on a bit of a hiatus. I won't be gone, just on a bit of a vacation. Well, a vacation minus the relaxation, yummy food, sunny weather.... okay so nothing like a vacation! I am counting on all of you to keep me company through your fantastic posts. I promise that after all this moving business I will get back into leaving you all some warm and fuzzy comment love! Just bare with me through the next couple of weeks! It's gonna be a wild ride!
Monday, December 13, 2010
The people who can't afford to fix their broken windows, broken doors, caved in roofs and cracked walls are cold....
The people who live in their car are cold....
The people who carry all of their belongings around on their back and have no home are cold....
The children who are home alone while their parents are out all night and can't operate the thermostat, find a blanket or a warm pair of pajamas are cold...
The children whose parents haven't gotten them a coat this year, and probably can't or won't, are cold....
Sunday, December 12, 2010
She just stares at it and smiles. She will randomly say things like, "Mommy I love this song because it's my favorite", "Mommy we sing that at church", "Remember Mommy, remember that part?". She loves to sing the chorus of the song and loves for me to point to the words as we sing together. It is beyond precious and melts my heart. My child is not perfect, she frustrates me from time to time, she causes me to worry about silly things, she was born a broken and sinful person.... but moments like this show me that God is working on her heart and all the work Charlie and I are putting into her is worth it. It is worth every single second.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Although this picture doesn't show the lovely utters. It also doesn't show you just how BIG this ornament is! It is one of the biggest on our tree for sure. Lula Mae loves her some animals!
Friday, December 10, 2010
To Everyone Who Wanted The Weather To Change,
See what you did? I hope you're happy.... I sure am not!!!! I was just fine with the hot weather, just fine. Hot weather, although annoying, does not hurt the way cold weather does. I don't want to hear any of you complain about how cold it is this winter. Not one bit! You asked for it!
Dear Office Max,
I ordered it on November 25th.... IT'S DECEMBER 10th!!!!!! Seriously!!!! Ship it already!!!!! Excuse me while I make a mental note never to buy anything from you, no matter how good of a deal it is. Aaaaaannnnnnd done.
Impatiently Waiting For My Amazing Deal
To A Company Who Shall Remain Nameless,
I know what my coverage is. I know it very well actually. I know you are just trying to wiggle your way out of paying it. I love how nice you are on the phone, making it seem like it is the doctor offices fault. Well now I look like a goof because I told them what you said.... and you were wrong, very very wrong..... again. Stop making my look stupid and just pay it. Our last conversation was about as nice as I'm going to get, which should make you shiver. I don't like getting blunt and rude, but when it comes to you paying what you are required to pay..... I find it necessary. The date of service was October 2, 2009. Over a year ago! Lets just get this paid so we can move on with our lives, okay? Mmmmkay great!
Very Annoyed Customer Who Refuses To Pay What YOU Owe
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Before we stay up way past our bedtime, say happy new Year and kiss the one we love though, we must celebrate the birth of a really swell guy. You may know Him.... His name is Jesus!!!!! So, off you go to enjoy this very quickly passing holiday season! Just so you are aware, we set to close on our house in 12 days!!!!!! Ahhhhh!!!! The lady wants to possibly move that up if we can!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!! THAT'S PRETTY EXCITING!!!! Sorry for the yelling. Anyhoo, that means we are 18 days away from our move!!!!!! So please excuse me if I am not pouring out the comment love these days. Just know that I am keeping up with all of you and can't wait to get back into the blogging routine *sigh* as soon as we get settled into the new house!!!! It is going to be great!!!!
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Ingredients For Cake
- 1 strawberry cake mix ( I take the help from the store on this one)
- 1 packet of kool-aid lemonade
- 1 can of lemon pie filling (you won't be using the entire can)
Ingredients For Icing (I got this from a friend)
- 1 cup of Crisco (plain or butter flavor)
- 1 cup of butter (2 sticks)
- 1 bag of powdered sugar (not an exact measurement because you will add a little at a time but it is usually about half of a 2 pound bag... so about a pound of it.)
- Vanilla extract (to taste... usually not much at all)
- 1 packet of strawberry lemonade kool-aid (you only need to use a little less than half of it)
Instructions For Icing
- Let butter set out and get to room temperature.
- Cream together the butter and Crisco
- Slowly add in the powdered sugar a little at a time
- After adding a little bit of sugar add in half, or a little less than half, of the strawberry lemonade kool-aid packet
- Add more sugar until it gets to a firm consistency.
- Store in the fridge
Instructions For Cake
- Read the back of your cake mix box. Pre-heat the oven and prep your pans as directed.
- Mix the cake batter as directed. Add the packet of lemonade kool-aid to the batter.
- Pour batter into your pans and bake as directed. I usually under bake from what the package suggests by 2 minutes and test each cake to see if they are done. No one likes an over cooked, dry cake.
- Let cakes cool completely before assembling and icing your cake.
- Once cool, spread a layer of pie filling on one of the cakes. Now stack the other cake on top of that one.
- Ice your cake.
- Cut yourself a slice and enjoy!
It is super easy to make these into cupcakes as well. I like this recipe both ways! Enjoy!
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Okay, it was a family tradition. All year long we fill up our jar with pocket change. Then, we cash it in to buy our Christmas tree. For the past three years Charlie and I have taken Lula Mae to the local Christmas tree farm to pick out a tree. It is so fun! They have some animals, a fire to roast marshmallows over, hot chocolate and a little ornament shop. We pick ornaments out and write the year on the back of them. This year was the first year Lula Mae got to pick her own ornament. All the pretty little ornaments and what did she pick? A cow. Not a cute cartoonish cow, oh no, a big fat realistic cow... with utters. Yep, a big fat cow. That's my girl. She loves animals. Then she helped me pick Jayce's first ornament, a little bell that says "Babies 1st Christmas" with a snowman on top.
So then we went to look at the trees. We always go back to the "clearance" trees. You know, the ones they hide way in the back because they are cheaper. They are smaller and sometimes have a few gaps in the limbs and such, but that is fine with us. Then it happened.... we saw the price.
You are kidding????
That is almost double what we paid last year... and this one is SMALLER!!!!
And this is when our new tradition was born.
From now on we will be visiting the lovely little tree farm, petting the cute animals, roasting marshmallows, sipping the hot chocolate and letting the kids pick an ornament. Then we will drive 2 miles down the road to Food Lion and get a tree for $29.99.
I'm totally okay with that. Traditions sometimes need to be tweaked, but they are still special. I hope you are all starting to enjoy all those little family traditions of your own!
Sunday, December 5, 2010
I tend to photograph terribly... because I make crazy faces...
I also have a habit of making it EXTREMELY obvious that my left ear is noticeably bigger than my right but wearing my hair up ...
If that isn't the case I somehow distort my body and make myself look 4 times wider than I really am....
Or I smile all crazy and show my horribly yellow teeth to the world...
Then, of course, I take pictures like this where you can see up my nose.... because we all know how attractive that is....
A lot of the time I get caught mid sentence and look like a goof.....
Saturday, December 4, 2010
- Still no teeth, but it looks like his bottom ones are about to make their appearance
- He can't crawl yet, but he can roll and scoot anywhere he wants to go. He is going to be crawling before we know it!
- He has no interest in eating food yet. I try cereal and applesauce every now and then but he just could not care less. That's just fine though, he is growing beautifully (16 pounds roughly) and drinks his bottles just fine.
- He loves to laugh and play with his big sister. He is also very in love with his Daddy and playing rough. He is such a boy!
- We can already see that this little man has a BIG temper. When you take something away from him or he doesn't get exactly what he wants.... look out. He needs to have a chat with Lula Mae and see how well that attitude works in this house.
- He is starting to do much, much better in the car! I am not dreading the drive to Orlando quite as much as I was.
- He is quite the talker! He loves to babble and sing which it one of the most amazing sounds ever. I love his sweet baby voice!
- His reflux seems to be very controlled. We are looking forward to being able to wean him from his medicine and enjoy a reflux free baby.
- He is loving "Your Baby Can Read" just like his sister. When his video is on he is so amazed and enthralled. It may just be a few more months before he starts reading, but I am not expecting that.... just saying. Lula Mae was reading her first words at 8 and a half months. We shall see :-)
As exciting as it is to see Jayce grow and change, I hope time slows down a little bit. I am trying so hard to soak in all these sweet moments, but I feel like they are slipping away at lightning speed! Happy 7 months Jayce, you are such a gift from God and I love you so very much!
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
I haven't done a 200 Challenge in forever. I figured at this point I shouldn't try to back track and breakdown each month, but I thought giving you my overall totals would be a good idea.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
So how is she earning her toys back? Well, being the visual learner that she is I decided to make her a chart. Right outside her door, on her eye level, I put up a behavior chart. Around the chart are little reminders.... talk nicely, clean up, eat what is provided, listen, obey, pray, have Jesus in your heart.... and every time I see her displaying Godly character traits, I reward her with a sticker on her chart. When she earns 7 stickers in a row, she gets to pick one of her toys out of the closet. She has already earned 2 toys back and I am very proud of her. She still has a ways to go, but I am seeing progress. It is so tough seeing Lula Mae go through these lows sometimes, but I know it is normal. The chart helps me to use our praise method (praise 90% of the time and correct 10%) in a very visual way. Lula Mae is really enjoying it. She is very proud of the stickers she has on her chart. She goes up to it constantly during the day and reads all the reminders on it. Hopefully she will earn her toys back at a good steady pace, but I know we will have our good days and bad.
Lula Mae is teaching me so much, and I hope I am doing the same for her. I hope that when I look at the women she becomes I can see godly qualities. Godly qualities that she learned from watching me and through these loving discipline actions. And, as always, I am praying for her to become a godly woman who strives to raise godly children herself someday.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
It has been quite a while since I
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Friday, November 26, 2010
Our gift strategy is simple.... I buy each child one toy, Charlie buys each child one toy, then we both get them one more joint toy. So each child will receive 3 gifts each Christmas. We stick to a small budget and try very hard not to go over the top (although this is really hard because I show love by giving gifts so I have to hold back!)
We may decide not to do Santa and we may not get our kids a million presents but we will still have a great Christmas. Our Christmas will be full of time together with family. It will be full of celebration. It will be full of love! I just love Christmas!!!! Although I do adore Christmas music and a live tree with beautiful lights and decorations too :-) All those things help make Christmas extra enjoyable!
So do you have Santa in your house? Do you have any special traditions that make Christmas extra special? I would love to know! I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving!
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Monday, November 22, 2010
On Sunday we had Lula Mae and Jayce dedicated, which really has more to do with Charlie and I. We have dedicated ourselves to raising them for God. It was a nice step in our parenting. I love my children and want to do the best for them.
Sunday evening we went out and spent some time with friends. They fixed dinner for us and we hung out for a while. We got home just in time to put the kids to bed.
And that bring us to today. It is very much Monday around here. Laundry did not get touched this weekend, sheets need to be changed, dinners need to be planned out for the week, the budget needs to be looked at.... boy is it Monday. I am so glad that I have officially finished Christmas shopping! All gifts are ordered/purchased (Charlie has even gotten mine!) and some are even wrapped. With the crazy busy holiday season about to kick off I am very glad of that. It will be nice to not have to worry about shopping (since I hate shopping).
Also, we just got our inspection report back on the house. We have some reading to do! There isn't anything structural, but there is one thing that will need to be addressed before we move forward. We are hopeful that everything still going to go smoothly from this point.
Did I mention it was Monday?
Saturday, November 20, 2010
I always said that I would not hide vegetables for my kids. I wanted them to just learn to eat healthy. Then life happened and I gave birth to a picky eater. Not incredibly picky, she does love avocados, green beans, yogurt, string cheese, wheat bread... but picky non the less. So, how does this ninja mommy make sure her picky toddler is eating a wide variety of fruits and veggies? With these...
What are they? Baby food. Yep, baby food. Organic baby food mash ups. Lula Mae LOVES these things. She loves that they are a "treat" and really likes the packaging. If you put them in the refrigerator they are like a smoothie! There are TONS of choices which means lots of variety for her. These are not a daily thing for her, but about two or three times a week she gets one. Typically I get just the veggie ones, but I also grab a few of the fruit ones too. They are great to throw in the diaper bag for a healthy snack when we are out and about. I am super in love with these things! The ingredients are the best part. Just the fruits and veggies! Nothing else! I really love that! I am trying to feed my kids better than what I feed myself. These things are so helpful!
If you have a toddler that is turning down too many veggies and you feel like you need to supplement their diet you should try these! Lula Mae and I highly recommend them!
I sure hope I don't have to trick her into eating her veggies forever... but for now, I guess it's alright :-)
Friday, November 19, 2010
Hooray it is Friday! That means it is time for Letters of Intent! Be sure to go over to Julies blog (which is being sabotaged by an incredibly annoying anonymous commenter might I add) to read more great letters!
Dear Big Lots,
I am a loyal shopper. I have loved you for a long time now. With your low prices you are incredibly hard to resist. A cheapskate like me just can't hold back from loving you. I have a tiny little suggestion though. Could you possibly look into getting some normal size buggies? (yes, I said buggies) The buggies you have are only a tiny step above the mini carts the grocery store has for kids to push while their Mommy shops. Oh sure, the buggy was just fine back when I only had one child. Two children however, just don't seem to fit. When I shop with the two of them it is a big production. Every time I have to put something in the buggy I have to.... lift Jayce's seat out of the back, set him on the floor, get the item off the shelf, strategically place it in the buggy, lift Jayce's car seat up high enough to put him back in the buggy. See? It adds an element of torture to my shopping. I'm not okay with that. You should check out the buggies at Sam's Club. Those suckers are HUGE and they even have 2 seats up front. TWO SEATS! It's genius I tell you! So be a pal and invest in some bigger buggies. Preferably ones like Sam's Club.
Loyal Shopper Who Can't Keep Hoisting Her Big Ole Baby In And Out Of The Cart Just To Add An Item
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
All this moving stuff is so odd to me. It is happening so effortlessly. It is going smoother than smooth. We didn't eve have our house on the market. This whole thing really did just fall in our lap. I can't begin to tell you how incredible it is to see God working in my life. This whole situation has nothing to with us and all to do with God's timing. It is perfect. He knows His plan for our family and will see to it that if this is meant to happen, it will. Honestly I haven't worried or obsessed about this whole thing. Not even once. Not like me at all folks, not even a little bit. I am trying so hard to just live for God. Being preoccupied with with Him you just don't have time to worry. It is such a nice feeling!
Looks like this coming year will bring lots of decorating, organizing and memory making! It is going to be interesting journey for us.
So who is up for a painting party once we move in? Who wants to help renovate a kitchen? Clear out the overgrown yard? Any takers? Just keep it in mind, that's all I'm asking.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Lula Mae: "Mommy, where's Daddy going?"
Me: "He is going to work."
Lula Mae: "No, he's going golfing." ( I have to add that Charlie has only been golfing once that she can even remember!)
Me: "But it is raining outside so he can't go golfing. I promise he went to work."
Lula Mae: "Oh, it's raining outside. Can we go to Disney World instead? Please Mommy?"
Do you have any idea how hard it was for me to not pack some bags and leave a note on the counter for Charlie that said....
Went to Disney World.
Be back....at some point.
Dinner is in the fridge.
Monday, November 15, 2010
I try to devote all of my day to my kids. I want them to have memories of us together, having fun and learning. I want them to remember us talking openly about God and showing love to each other daily. Honestly though, there are days where I fail miserably. Too many days I go to bed feeling guilty for not spending every precious minuet with my sweet babies. Sure the laundry was nicely folded, the kitchen was tidy and the sheets were all fresh, but I went to be feeling empty. It makes me wonder if my poor children were feeling empty and unloved.
When Jayce turned 6 months old I desperately longed for him to be a tiny little newborn again so that I could hold and snuggle him the way I once did. The fact that he is half way through his first year of life makes me realize just how fleeting time is. In just a few short months he will be one and Lula Mae will be three. Their babyhood is drifting away, and I feel like I am missing it. Even though I am with them every day, I feel like it is slipping away. I am determined not to let my OCD cause me to miss out on these precious years with my children. Some days I can't focus on them because I just want to reorganize the closet for the 20th time. Or I can't focus because I know the refrigerator needs to be wiped out. If I am having one of those days where my ODC is pretty bad, focusing on my kids is close to impossible. It isn't fair to them and I hate it.
I wholeheartedly think that God sees motherhood as a big responsibility, but I also believe that taking care of the home, caring for my husband and handling the finances are just as important. So how do you juggle it all? How do I spend all my time with my children and take care of my home too? How can I do it without being obsessive about it?
The other day I was rushing around during Jayce's morning nap trying to get some things done. Lula Mae was under me the whole time, asking if I would play. I hated to tell her that I needed to do some work. Then I had an epiphany.... she is old enough to be involved with my work around the house. She needs to see me doing these things so that she can learn how to be a homemaker. So I pulled up a stool and she helped me wash the bottles. Then she was excited to help me make lunch. I tend to still see her as my baby and hide the fact that she is a very big girl who can do so much more than I give her credit for. She is a fantastic helper :-) The house can still be managed while I spend time with my children. It is possible.
Some days I have it together and I manage my time wisely, and others I struggle. This whole parenting thing really is a learning adventure. I feel like I take one step forward and two steps back. Regardless, my children love me unconditionally and I love them unconditionally. My OCD can't stop me from enjoying my kids. I just won't allow such a thing!
Saturday, November 13, 2010
If you are like me, a song hits harder when the lyrics are right in front of you. I hope you like this song as much as I do.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Happy Friday everyone! I hope you all had a great week and are looking forward to a nice relaxing weekend! My brain is still trying to process a lot of stuff but I am feeling much less overwhelmed. I got a new book to start and I think that will help.
Really, Christmas music already? You seem to have forgotten something. It's a little holiday I like to call Thanksgiving. Now, I am totally excited for the Christmas season too, but I don't think it is really nice to just skip Thanksgiving. I really like Thanksgiving and all the cute decorations. I do not like going straight from scary Halloween stuff to Christmas trees! Chill out already!
Big Fan of The Holidays Going In Chronological Order
I can't wait to see you! I love your family gatherings and delicious food! Just thinking about you causes me to gain weight, and ya' know what.... I'm totally ok with that. You are so worth it. Try not to get your feelings hurt by everyone trying to skip you. They don't mean it.
One of Your Biggest Fans!
The cookie dough was a great gift. We really love it. In fact, we love it too much. I am blaming you for my weight gain, just so you know. 3 tubs? 3 GIANT tubs? Really? I can't resist it! My inner fat kid just can't stop! For Christmas I am going to bake you a ridiculous amount of cookies.... if there is any left! Excuse me while I go have a spoon of cookie dough.....
Fat and Happy
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
- Apparently we may be moving. It is quite a confusing situation (in a good way) so I don't want to get into details yet. Just know that we are kinda busy these days and are gearing up for a possible move. Pray that God will guide us to make the right decisions.
- I am going to do some Christmas shopping tomorrow and I am excited. Honestly I am going to be doing all of my shopping. I can't stand it lingering over my head.
- I have been clearing out clutter through the house and attic. It feels so good. Now, I am all about making a few bucks, but I get a thrill donating things. No offense to people who have yard sales, but I am a big believer in donation. I know that God has provided for us and is going to keep providing for us. We are blessed. Why must American's sell everything for a profit? Just give it to someone in need.
- I am not even going to try to actually potty train Lula Mae until after the possible move. If we don't move, I will put her into big girl panties right after Christmas. Charlie will have a good bit of time off so I want to do it then. I'm telling you, once I put her in panties we are done. I am not going back and forth between diapers and panties. We may have to clean up lots and lots of messes, but I don't want to confuse her by going back and forth. Wish me luck folks. Perhaps she will be ready when I am.... here's hoping!
- There is a thin line between loving and hash discipline. There are many times when disciple is necessary in parenting. Lately Lula Mae has shown me that I am not doing a good job walking that line. "Mommy please stop right now" (in a less than favorable tone). Even though I am using nice words, my tone is far from appropriate. I am determined to treat my children the way I want them to treat me. Their little ears always hear me. Their little eyes always see me. Their little minds are soaking everything in and I want them to soak in godly qualities from me.
- I am so far behind on bloggy love and I am sorry. I promise I am reading and keeping up with all of you, but I am just so buried beneath myself that I am unable to comment on some things. I promise I will make it up to you! I promise!!!! You all know I love you and appreciate you!!!!
Monday, November 8, 2010
Thursday, November 4, 2010
When a mother exudes a sense of peace, and tranquility, her family feels calm. Peacefulness brings healing to a troubled spirit. A peaceful mother is like a medicinal balm. Peace and assurance of Mother's love are necessary ingredients for a happy home. -unknown author
Have courage for the great sorrows of life and patience for the small ones; and when you have laboriously accomplished your daily task, go to sleep in peace. God is awake. -Victor Hugo
God, give us grace to accept with serenity the things that cannot be changed, courage to change the things that can be changed, and the wisdom to distinguish one from another. - Reinhold Niebuhr
"Why are you troubled?" He asked them. "And why do doubts arise in your hearts? Look at My hands and My feet." -Luke 24:38-39
Christ's willingness to continue drawing us to belief totally astounds me. At no time after appearing to His disciples in resurrected form did he say, "You bunch of idiots! I'm sick of trying to talk you into believing Me!". When the sight of Him wasn't enough, Jesus said, "Look at My hands and My feet.". We ourselves have often seen His hands by way of His constant provision and glorious intervention. We have seen His feet as He's gone before us. Surely we, too, have beheld the hands and feet of Christ with the eyes of faith. May we look again today- and believe!
Beth Moore: Believing God Day by Day
I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone O Lord, make me dwell in safety. -Psalm 4:8
May the words of my mouth and the meditation of me heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my redeemer. -Psalm 19:14
God moves through this house today. I feel it, I know it, I believe it. I have to finish off with this last thing I read:
Do what is necessary to nurture the spirit of stillness in your life. Don't let the enemy wear you so thin that you lose your balance and perspective. Regular time for stillness is as important and necessary as sleep, exercise, and nutritional food. -Emilie Barnes
How can I be afraid of anything after my quiet time today? He is working hard on me, and I am thankful. With time, I think healing will come and Christ will flow from me. Each day I am going to devote two blocks of time for stillness. One for me and my children together and another for myself. I encourage you to do the same. We are all busy, but may we never be to busy to simply be still and listen to God.
Continue to pray for me friends. Today the battle is going well, but I still have so far to go.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
I feel as though my good days out number my bad, but it does not make the bad days any better. I pray day in and day out that my fears and obsessions will not burden my family. I don't want to hold them back and keep them from a "normal" life. My mind is always racing. There are days where it is so bad I can't make myself leave the house. I can't leave because I am worried that something terrible will happen to me or one of my children. I feel imprisoned by fear and anxiety. What will happen when we have another baby? Or two more? Or how ever many more God chooses? Will I be buried a live by all the fear and anxiety? Will I ever be normal?
Will I ever be able to... pump gas without thinking that it will explode? go on a cruise with my husband without worrying that the boat will sink and I will drown? get on a plane without thinking that it will crash? let my children enjoy playing in a pool without worrying that they will drown in front of my eyes? let my children walk trough a store without thinking that someone is following us, just waiting to grab them and I will never see them again? stop thinking that my children will sneak out of their Sunday school classroom, make it outside and get hit by a car or be kidnapped? fall asleep without thinking our house will catch on fire and I won't be able to get to my babies to get them out? stop worrying that someone will break into my house and hurt my family? This is really just the tip of the ice burg, unfortunately.
I never once have prayed for God to take these things away from me. He made me perfect, so they are there for a reason. God's word says over and over again that I have nothing to worry about. I am glad of that. Before I was saved, my fears were worse (if you can even imagine). God is working on me and He will never stop. So perhaps, someday, all these things will disappear. Scripture helps me make it through each day. Some days it helps more than others, but it always helps. Satan wants to win this battle, but I am determined not to let him. I have complete faith in God and his promises. All these fears and anxiety help me remember how dependent I need to be on Him. If that is the only reason they are there, I am okay with that. Each day is different, but they are all a blessing!