This week my biggest struggle is motivation! Typically this is not an issue for me... but this week it absolutley is! I know that Satan is trying to bring me down for some reason or another and I am fighting him tooth and nail! This lack of motivation is also causing me to be more negative than usual. Being positive is something that I really have to work hard on so this is a rough time for me. I feel like I need a break from everything. I am hopeful that when we get back from vacation I will be in much better spirits! I plan on wining this fight with Satan!
Even youths grow tired and weary...but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. Isaiah 40:30-31
Busy, busy, busy! That sums this week for me! I have been keeping a good friend of mines daughter and she is at a very needy age. Moms, you can remember how your 2 months old were I am sure. She just needs lots of interaction and love. Lula Mae seems to like the baby... but when I am holding or feeding the baby she gets a little bit jealous. So far I have been juggling the two kids very well, but each of them has good days and bad days. I love being able to help my friend out! God put me back in her life for a reason! It is so good to catch up with her!
We will soon be on the road again! In route to Disney World for another visit to The Happiest Place On Earth! I am not sure there is anyone else that really loves that place like I do! I am very excited for Lula Mae to ride all the rides again! She has such a good time! I love Disney World even more now that I see the smile that it puts on my daughters face! Charlie seems to have an amazing time too ;-)
An old friend of mine posted this video on Facebook and I knew right away that I wanted to post it on my Blog. It is a very powerful video and I hope that you will take the time to watch it!
It feels like we just brought Lula Mae home from the hospital, but it has already been 15 months since she was born. Where does time go? She has started to walk better and better now, even though she still isn't really "walking" quite yet. I'm sure in the next few weeks she will be walking all over the house! Oh my! Charlie can tell you that her teeth are quite sharp! She bite him pretty good the other day! Lula Mae is starting to talk better and better too. She has started to call for "ma ma" (finally!) and will call Charlie "Daddy" instead of "da da" which is really cute! She likes to ask you "whattayoudiong" (I put it all together because she says it all together!) but it is super cute! She is great at saying "No" and "toy" and "ball" and "dog" and "cat" and "hi". She really has a pretty big vocabulary for 15 months! Her first 2 word combination was "oh no" and it is so funny because she says it with such distress that you just have to laugh! Like something so bad has happend (when really she just dropped her toy)! She certainly keeps me entertained! I have the best job!
In other news....we are getting ready to go on vacation soon! Yes, another trip to Disney! With what may be coming in the future for us this may be the last trip for quite a while. I am really excited! We are going to go to Universal Studios and Islands of Adventure again on this trip too so that will be a blast! I am sure I will have lots of funny stories to tell when we return! We will also be traveling down to Tampa to see my Aunt MaryElla and Uncle Mario after Disney! This trip will be fun for lots of reasons! Right now I am drowing in lists! Trying to make packing less of a chore for this trip.... but when you have a one year old packing is a little bit over whelming! Especailly packing for a one year old who is very particualr and ODC like her mother! It will all be worth it when I see how excited Lula Mae will be to see Mickey and Minnie again! Such priceless memories!
I have the future weighing heavy on my mind these days. This is something that I know I shouldn't worry about, but again, my mind is getting in the way of my heart. Charlie and I are going to have some things coming up that will be challenging. They will be challenging mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually. Luckily, Charlie and I have a very strong relationship and I know that together we can get through anything! I am blessed to have such an amazing husband! It is hard for me to wrap my mind around what is up ahead, but I am trying desperately. I get very frustrated with myself when I worry about things that I can't even change or control. This has been a problem I have had all of my life really. I am a very OCD person and I love to have control (anyone who know me well is quite aware of this). Well, sometimes we are not suppose to have control, and I am trying to grasp this concept. I have a lot to pray about right now concerning the future. I am hoping that with time and prayer I will trust God deeper and deeper with this.
Therefor do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34
I read this verse every morning. It helps me give God my worry. Why is it so easy to tell someone else "If it is meant to happen, its going to happen" and "You are just suppose to trust Him" and "Don't worry He will take care of you", but so hard to live by yourself? Again, this is just something I am trying to work on in myself.
This song is one of my Mom's favorites, and mine too. This song helps me to not worry about the future, and that is exactly what I need right now. I know that God is going to take care of everything and that I have nothing to worry about! Enjoy!
I Know Who Holds Tomorrow
I don't know about tomorrow, I just live from day to day. And I don't borrow from the sunshine 'Cause the skies might turn to grey. And I don't worry about the future, 'Cause I know what Jesus said, And today I'm gonna walk right beside Him 'Cause He's the one who knows what is ahead. There are things about tomorrow That I don't seem to understand But I know who holds tomorrow And I know who holds my hand. And each step is getting brighter As the golden stairs I climb. And every burden is getting lighter And all the clouds, their silver line. And, I'll bet the sun it's always shining And no tears will ever dim the eye And the ending of the rainbow Where the mountains, they touch the sky. There are many things about tomorrow I don't seem to understand But I know who holds tomorrow And I know who holds my hand. Yes I know who holds my hand.
Things have been busy around here lately. A few days ago Charlie came home from a 3 week annual training at Ft. Stewart. It was a very, very long 3 weeks! Lula Mae and I missed him so much! I am glad to be able to say that Lula Mae waited until her Daddy got home to start walking! YAY! That's right! Our 15 month old is finally walking! Well, at this point she is toddling between the two of us, but this is big news for Lula Mae! She is also feeding herself with a spoon! It is quite messy, but she has to learn, right?!? Last but not least, Lula Mae is trying to use the potty! She will sit there as long as I make her at this point. Sometimes she goes, and sometimes she doesn't. I am not really "potty training" yet, but I figure letting her get to know the potty can't hurt anything! She is doing great with it though! I am so proud of her! Lula Mae is growing up so fast! I sure do love my life! my daughter is amazing! Oh, and my husband too ; ) God has blessed me more than I could ever have imagined possible!
Eating yougart with a spoon for the first time!
Sitting on the potty! (yes she has to have the TV for that too!)
I try to stay positive about life... but I am only human and I have lots of struggles! Sometimes it is something simple like having no idea what to cook for dinner. And then there are times when I struggle with much deeper things. Now that I have a blog I feel like I can finally get things off of my chest, out of my mind and in front of me. Once I look at my problems I can pray about them and work through them. Each week I will try to post what I have been struggling with lately. If it is something that you can help me pray about, I hope that you will! If it is something that you can leave a comment about, I hope you will!
I know that in my heart I am suppose to trust God in all things. Lately I have been finding this easier said than done. I know in my heart that I am suppose to trust... but my mind seems to be getting in the way! I feel like I need to give a lot of these problems to God (well, all of them really!) so that I can stop feeling so anxious all the time. Right now we are trying to sell our house and I think this is the root of my struggle. I know that God is going to take care of us! That is the most important thing! I am always saying "everything happens for a reason"but I feel like I very rarely listen to myself! Over the next week I am going to try very hard to let things be in Gods hands and just trust that things will happen exactly when and how they are suppose to happen! All I need to do is trust!
I love to listen to music for all kinds of reasons! I think one of the main reasons though is to find some type of comfort. Lyrics have helped me stay positive and get through so many things in my life. Each week I will try to post lyrics to a different song. Each song will have a special meaning to me and I hope that you enjoy reading them!
*This week I have chosen a song that I love to listen to all the time! It kinda goes along with why I named my blog "A Small Gate With A Narrow Road". My life has been amazing ever since I heard my calling from God! This song is so uplifting and I hope you enjoy it! I Heard My Savior Calling Me
There was a great revival in our little country church People came from miles around to hear about God's word anointed in the spirit you could feel it in the air My life was changed that night as I bowed my head in prayer
(Chorus) I heard my Savior calling me on that blessed night I fell down on my knees Well I raised my hands to Jesus pure faith has set me free Praise God I see the light my Saviors calling me
I'm so thankful for a Savior who would make the sacrifice In a selfless loving gesture giving us eternal life Yes an offer for the taking listen with an open heart It's a choice that's up to you, hear the Savior calling too
Praise God I see the light I heard my Savior calling me
The inspiration for my Blog title came from the Book of Matthew. Matthew 7:13-14 reads "Enter through a narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow is the road that leads to life, and only a few take it.". I feel like it took me many years to stop going through all the wide gates and broad roads out there. I was not on the path that God had for me all those years. I was on the path that people wanted me to follow. Finally I am on the path God has laid out for me! There are many people who I am sure still think that I am not doing things "right", but I know that I am.....FINALLY! As I sit here and write this and watch my daughter play, I know that I am where God wants me to be! I am sure that there will be many bumps on this narrow road, but I know that with God, my husband, my child, my friends and family, that I can make it!