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Letters Of Intent

Every Friday I read Letters Of Intent. Lots of people link up so I get to read lots of them. I finally figured I would join in on the fun! So every Friday I will have a new Letter Of Intent to share on my blog. I hope you will enjoy my venting :-)



Dear LOUD singing Wal-Mart Greeter,

You make me nervous. There is no need to sing at the top of your lungs while you are doing your job. A simple "Hello, welcome to Wal-Mart" would suffice. I think it is safe to say that you make everyone in the store uncomfortable. Do you realize that no one likes going to Wal-Mart in the first place? You make me like it even less. When I come into a store to shop I don't particularly expect to hear a man belting out gospel music. Don't get me wrong, I am a Christian and love to worship the Lord with music too... just not at Wal-Mart. Sorry. When I enter the store and you are at the door I came in, I make sure to go out the other door when I leave just to avoid you. I am sure some people think you are cute and sweet... but you don't fool me. Do your job and get me a buggy that has good turning wheels, doesn't pull to the left or right drastically and doesn't BUMP BUMP BUMP the whole way through the store. I would like you to do your job so that my shopping experience is happier. So basically... stop singing and try doing your job. That would really be great.

Sincerely,

The Woman Who Didn't Go To Wal-Mart To Get A Headache!

Sweet Memories

This was the last time I saw Uncle Larry. It was a joyful day. He and Aunt Mary had come to see Jayce. Look at that smile on his face! Contagious! I am grateful to God that Uncle Larry was able to meet Jayce. He prayed for him as well and that means more to me than anything. Jayce is being watched over by a very special man.

When I think of Uncle Larry, this is what I picture... a huge hug and special kiss. For as long as I can remember I have hated to tell Uncle Larry goodbye. It never failed... I would cry and beg him not to go. Oh how it would pull on his heart strings! I love looking at this picture.

The day that I heard Uncle Larry was not going to make it was no different. I cried and begged God not to let him go. I had a choice... I could go down to Charleston and see him one last time (sick, in pain, possibly not even knowing who I was or not able to talk to me) or I could stay home. I stayed home. At the time I was happy with that decision. I wanted to remember him healthy, well and happy. How selfish of me! He got a very rare chance to say his goodbyes, accept death and prepare to meet his Heavenly Father. Not many people get that chance. I blew it. I was thinking of me and not Uncle Larry. Now I have to live with that decision for the rest of my life. I could have hugged him one last time, heard his voice and told him how much I loved him. But I didn't. He may have wanted to see me one more time and tell me goodbye. But he didn't get to all because I was being selfish. I have a huge amount of guilt right now that I am praying for peace from. I know God will get me through it, but I also know it will take time. Uncle Larry meant the world to me and anyone who knows me could tell you that. Grieving is hard. Loss is hard. Knowing that Uncle Larry has legs and is walking with Jesus is not! Knowing that he will never suffer again is not! I am so glad that he is home! I am so glad that he is with his Mom and Dad and Brother again! I will get one more chance to see him again, and I am sure not going to blow it! I am going to live a life of Faith like Uncle Larry so that I know I will get that chance. Thank you God for giving me another chance by sending your Son to die on the cross so that I may have everlasting life!

I love you Uncle Larry and I can't wait to see you again. That is going to be a great hug, I just know it! I sure am going to miss you! You tell Granny, Granddaddy and Uncle Mark that I miss them too. Save me a place at the foot of the throne!

Dear God

Dear God,

Please watch over Uncle Larry. Help him not to hurt or suffer anymore. Take away his pain, fear and anxieties that he may have. I know he will be with you soon, but please give him some more time to see his sisters, wife and children. This is tough God. I trust you with all my fears. I am not ready to get the call that Uncle Larry has taken his last breath. I am more than afraid. Why is death so hard to accept? Even though I know he will be in a better place with you, I am still asking "why". I know I shouldn't and I'm sorry. Help heal my heart God. Help me to trust you with everything, even death. I am going to miss Uncle Larry God, more than I can express. Take good care of him God. I know he will be so happy to see Granny, Granddaddy and Uncle Mark. Tell him I love him when he gets to heaven. Thank you God for giving me such an amazing Uncle. Thank you for being with him through all the good times and bad times. Your love will get our family through this. Be with everyone God and help us to feel your presence.

All for your glory,

Amy

Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted. -Matthew 5:4

The Past Two Years

A Picture Walk Down Memory Lane

Leaving for the hospital!



She is here! How beautiful!



One month old!
Still so tiny!






Five months old! Chubby little cheeks!





Nine months old! Finally wearing bows!




One year old! Celebrating your first birthday at Magic Kingdom! You had just met Mickey Mouse for the first time and were so happy!



15 months old! Always smiling and laughing!


16 months old! Finally starting to walk! This is on the trip to Disney World that we found out we were expecting Jayce!


21 months old! Looking so much like your Daddy!

I have been a Mommy for two years. I am so honored to be Lula Mae's Mommy. She is an amazing daughter and I don't know what my husband and I would do without her! Since Lula Mae has turned 2 I can't stop thinking about how much she has changed from 1 to 2. I mean, she changed tons in her first year of life, but the second seems almost monumental! So many milestones have come and gone. My little baby with chubby little cheeks is now a toddler, looking more and more like a little kid everyday. She is such a funny kid with a bubbly personality! Charlie and I have known since Lula Mae was only a few months old that she was going to be a funny, silly enthusiastic kid... and boy were we right! She is a nut, just ask anyone who has ever met her! She is super smart too! She blows my mind on a daily basis with all the things she knows and can do. One thing is for sure, when she is having a good day (which is most days) they are REALLY good, but if she is having a bad day it is REALLY bad. High highs and low lows! There is no in between with that little girl! She is such a free spirited child and a stranger to no one. She has no fear, which makes my heart worry from time to time. She is such a loving little girl too. God is going to do something big with her life, I just know it. He is going to use her for something amazing. I have enjoyed seeing God work on her these past 2 years and I can't wait to see what the years to come have in store. I love Lula Mae more than words can say! The day she was born she changed my life. God gave her to Charlie and I for a reason. I pray that Lula Mae (and all my children for that matter) will know God from day 1 instead of day 8,030... Yes, I was 22 years old before I truly knew God. But that is a post all its own, this one is for Lula Mae!

Llewellyn Marie Bell
May 14, 2008

You love.... animals, reading, dresses, shoes, Daddy, baths, family time, balloons, movies, Mickey Mouse, your routine, Jayce, Uncle Buck's train, being outside, pajamas, talking, Eric, the doctor, being independent, your bed, sleeping, your monkey blanket... this list could get pretty lengthy!!!

You hate.... BIRDS, having a pony tail taken out, having to say goodbye, being told "no", meat of any kind, when Daddy goes to work, having your ears cleaned out, having your fingernails cut.

You learned.... how to walk, how to talk, how to read over 100 words, your colors, your shapes, your numbers, to recognize the alphabet, how to run, how to climb, how dance, to read sentences, to eat with a spoon and fork.... this list could go on and on and on!!!!

Such a sassy, sweet, vibrant little 2 year old! I can't believe we have a 2 year old! Feels like just yesterday we brought her home from the hospital. Lula Mae, you are amazing and I love you so very much! This year was fun, and I'm sure the next year to come will be too! I pray for you everyday. I pray that you will love God with all your heart, that you will stay pure, that you will know Jesus Christ as your savior, that you will love others the way God loves you. I pray many other things for you my sweet little girl. You make me so proud and so grateful. I love you. This post is a little late... but better late than never, right?

To: Gina And The Gang From: Lula Mae

Okay, this is really just for a friend of ours... but all are welcome to watch of course! Honestly, I am posting it because when I tried to email it to her I realized it was too big. Opps! So out of laziness I put in on my blog! Yep, I'm lazy! Lazy and BUSY! So Gina, that is why you never got that email I said I was going to send!