The Two Week Wait

Here we are again.

14 days of waiting.

14 days of wondering.

14 days of going back and forth between excited and nervous.

It feels different this time around. It is probably because it is Christmas time, but this two week wait is going by faster. So much faster.

One week from today I have my blood test.

Halfway through the waiting, wondering, nervous feelings.

We are also halfway through the feeling of knowing the baby is safe and sound. Right now we just know Hummingbird is in there. Thats it. I like that feeling. I like the PUPO stage. I am not sure I am ready for that to end.

I am trying to use this two weeks that God has given me as a time to "be still". I need to rest and relax, but I also just want to hear from God. It is the perfect opportunity to just sit in His presence and know that He is God. In this world it is hard to be still, and I am enjoying these moments.



Dear Hummingbird,

Are you okay in there? I guess we will see in a week, huh? Settle in for me please. Get nice and snug and cozy. Be patient with me and lets get through this next week together, okay? We can do this! So many people are praying for you and love you. They all really, really want you to stick around for a while. There is a lot of pressure on you and me Hummingbird, even if it is unintentional. Don't let it stress you out, just take it one day at a time. God's plan is perfect and know that you can trust Him no matter what.

Love,

Your Babysitter  

Happy Home

It's been so long since I posted a Happy Home post that I had almost forgotten about Happy Home all together! With the transfer 2 days away I have been trying to get a lot done around the house. I want things to be easy for Charlie while I am resting ( aka.... sitting on the couch, reading books, painting my toenails.... you know, growing a baby!!!!). Here is a tip for you guys that may help cut down on your cleaning time. Layer your small trash cans with several grocery bags. That way, when the trash is full, you can just pull one bag out. It leaves you with a fresh bag ready to go without taking all the cans back and forth to the kitchen trash can. I usually layer anywhere from 5 to 10 bags in a can, depending on the size. It helps my 4 year old be able to gather the trash from the house in a way that is easier and more sanitary. This tip may be old news to most of you, but perhaps it will help someone out there! 

Happy Monday to you all! Enjoy your week!

Tired of Lurking

I am tired of lurking in the shadows of all your blogs. I miss commenting on all of your posts.

I am tired of having no time.... and yet that is so selfish and wrong of me.

I am thankful for everything that is making me busy. Very very thankful.

Every season of life is unique and important. My heart knows this... but my brain is not quite as understanding. (already since writing this post an hour has past and I have gotten up 6 times for different things.)

I miss writing.

I miss being able to dump my brain on my blog.

I refuse to feel sad, I mean it's only a blog and only 5 people read it. There are people starving all over the world, my blog being neglected is not exactly something to be sad about.

I want to give you a quick update on where we are with the surrogacy before I end up running out of the little bit of time I actually have to write.

We are only 11 days away from the second transfer! I am already started on hormones and have had one appointment so far. Everything is right on track and we will be set to start thawing Cheerios baby brother/sister on the 11th! This cycle has FLOWN by compared to the last one. I am hoping that means the two week wait will go faster too. *crossing fingers* I am ready to have that baby safely in my womb! I am feeling tons of emotions... but that is a whole other post!

Life is busy.

I am thankful for busy.

And yet I can't help but keep thinking.... "stop the world, I want to get off!"

One day at a time.... 

Homeschool Work

This year I am focusing more on Bible memorization (books and verses) as well as Catechisms questions. I want this year to give us a good foundation for her first real year of homeschooling.... next year :-) I came up with a fun activity for Lula Mae to help her work on learning the books of the Bible. I saw someone on pintest use popsicle sticks to help kids memorize Bible verses so I switched it up and did the books of the Bible the same way. Take a look at our newest school activity!

 

 

 

 As you can see, Lula Mae loved this activity! She pulls is out frequently and I think it has really helped! She learned the New Testament so quickly!

 

Letters Of Intent

Sometimes the best way to get it off of your chest is in in letter form, so here we go! 

Dear Grocery Bagger, 

The number 1 rule in bagging groceries is bread gets its very own bag. The only exception to this rule is if you put my eggs in a bag and gently place the bread on top of the eggs. No other combination is acceptable. Bananas, like the 12 you put in with my bread, should never EVER go in the same bag a bread.

Sincerely,

My Bread Was For Sandwiches... Not Breadcrumbs! 

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Dear Jayce, 

While I love hearing your voice, I do not enjoy you telling me how to drive. No one likes a backseat driver little man, no one! You enjoy the scenery and leave the driving up to me. I promise I know my way around town and won't get us lost in the middle of nowhere. 

Love, 

Your Mommy Who Has Lived In This Town Her Entire Life  

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Dear Baby O, 

Are you ready? Well your turn is coming so get excited! Can you be a good little baby and thaw perfectly? I know you can! You rest up for a little while longer and get pumped for the big day! I can't wait to have you safely tucked away in my womb. Pretty awesome, huh?

Love, 

Your Future Babysitter 

  

   

I Blinked

And my babies, my tiny little babies....

 

Lula Mae at 4 days old

   

Jayce at 5 days old

                                                           

....turned into kids.

Jayce at 2 years 5 months & Lula Mae at 4 years and 5 months

These precious years are slipping away. I have pictures, videos, calendars with special notes written on them.... but I will never get to live these years again. I am trying to slow down and cherish these moments that are so swiftly leaving. And yet, time just seems to move faster. The busyness of "life" too often robs me of the precious moments I want to enjoy. I have to remind myself every single day that my babies are not babies and I need to slow down, hold them, tell them how special they are, stare at their little faces, hold their little hands, memorize the sounds of their voices, etch their silly laughs into my brain.... enjoy them while they are still little.

When did it happen though? I missed the transition somewhere. How is it that I have kids?

My babies are kids.