Determination

I am determined not to let life get me down right now. Charlie and I just found out that the people who were going to buy our condo backed out. We were set to close on November 18th... so 8 days before closing they backed out. It is very hard news to process all at once. We know that this must not have been what God wanted for us. Even knowing that, it is still hard to process and understand. Now we are trying to figure out how to make our family of 3, soon to be family of 4, fit in our 1200 square foot condo. It is not going to be easy, but it can be done. I was really ready to have a house with a yard. I would love to have our families over for holidays and dinners, but right now we just don't have the space. I would love to have a big yard for my kids to play in. Someday I know it will happen. Right now, we just have to pick ourselves up off the floor and move on. We just have to pray that in God's perfect timing we will have a house. God is taking care of us in every way and nothing will make me forget that... no amount of bad news will shake my relationship with God. He is my strength. He is my all. He will help us heal from this rough time and make us stronger in the process. He is a very mighty God!

Christmas Music

I have to say that Christmas music is my FAVORITE music of all! I really could listen to it all year round. It brings joy to my heart! I love feeling the spirit of Christmas through the music. From now until January I will post a Christmas song for my "Lyrics That Mean Something" section. I hope all my Christmas picks bring joy to your heart too!

God's Reason For My Life

God created woman to be a companion to man and to give life to God. This beautiful face is why I am here on this earth. God picked Charlie and I to be parents to this precious child. We are raising her for Him, not for us. We are so blessed to have her! We pray that every decision we make for her is the right one. We want to please God with her life! I thank God each and every day for giving us this amazing gift!



This is what I gave Charlie while we were eating dinner in the Magic Kingdom in September. Yep, we are being blessed with another miracle in May! The funny thing is that my estimated due date is on Lula Mae's birthday (May 14th). I love my life as a Mom and am so glad that God picked us to raise another beautiful child. I hope that we can do a good job raising this baby for God too. It will be very sad for Charlie to leave right after the baby is born, but God will be there to guide me. God knows the plan he has for us! We are so excited to be parents again!

Trusting in Him

Charlie and I are going through a lot right now. The house is a big part of our stress these days. It seems to be slipping through our fingers with no end in sight. We know that God has a plan for us and we are trusting in Him. Why does it seem so hard to trust Him sometimes? Everything within me knows that if we trust we will be fine, but my brain just isn't catching on I guess. It seems to be a constant struggle for me.

We also have the constant thought of Charlie being deployed in May. I know that we can get through it, but it is still going to be very hard. I am so worried about how Lula Mae will react to the situation. How can I be strong without Charlie here? How can I raise a 2 year old and a newborn alone? The only way I will get through this is to trust in Him. He will be by my side everyday. He will be my strength.

I find myself having to force myself to say "I think I can" a lot these days. I feel very negative even though I know I need to be positive. I know that we will make it through this rough time. Good things come to those who wait!

Too Cute For Words

Sleep Walking

I have been a sleep walker since I can remember! Luckily it doesn't happen every night. It is such a weird feeling that I really don't know how to describe. While it is happening I can tell that I am asleep and that I am walking, but I can't make myself stop. Last night I woke up 3 times! Once in the kitchen, once in the bathroom and once in the closet. It is very strange to wake up and be standing up instead of laying down! I think I sleep walk more when I have things on my mind, but I am not positive. Sometimes Charlie notices and other times he has no clue! I wonder if Lula Mae is going to sleep walk as bad as I do? Needless to say, it was a strange night!